Wish For Closure

Be careful what you wish for... be careful what you imagine and hope for... be careful because you have the power to make things happen.

I wanted to sing you a song... I wanted to punch you in the fucking face.

Seeing you this way, I am horrified by your ugliness. I am disappointed... but I have learned so much!

Drunken repetition of the words... I have learned so much! I am so embarrassed I did that! I'm so glad I learned so much!


I don't recall ever being so angry. I can't recall wanting to hurt someone so badly... for now... you're probably lucky I'm willing to walk away.

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