Sunburn
Well it certainly took a long time for that to blow up in my face... ...so suddenly I acknowledge the mistake. Suddenly I am actually trying to look at it clearly, and just as suddenly it spits in my eye. It was my mistake. I can't say that enough. But at least I can say enough about it. Too much actually. Is the lesson I'm supposed to learn- not to say anything about it? Or just that it will continue to haunt me and bite at me until I look at it in unfiltered and piercing sunlight? I guess leaving it to fester in the darkness has been my own downfall for too long. I guess no matter how much agony and shame the daylight brings, it's something I have to face... because I put that there- I deserve it, and because it's the only way to properly change... ...or maybe there were other ways and I just could never get anything right. ...maybe the universe is just sick of putting up with that shit being there. But what the fuck am I supposed to do?! I can't take ...