A Clear Pool

Recently, it feels like I'm going back in time and experiencing life with more control. I'm experiencing things other people figured out long ago in middle school and high school... but probably with a lot more cynicism than ignorant wonder and excitement. I'm realizing to what extent my thoughts and feelings go against society. It takes the love of many, those who are "soul mates", for one to grow and realize their true potential. The existence of one person who fulfills all your needs...that you also fulfill... is highly unlikely. This isn't pessimistic, unless you are really that possessive of the people in your life... To be unable to stand someone you like with anyone else... getting jealous just because they like someone that isn't you... to me that shows that you don't really care about that person as a person, you care about them as your possession. If you are going to be like that, at least have the courtesy to be with someone who wants ...

As I was sleeping, the world was turning- and I was foolish enough to believe that only the people I welcomed could enter my dreams. I've been learning how to recognize my fears and face them head on. Unfortunately, with the difficulty I've been having in recognizing fears... I seemed to have become somewhat stupid in devising proper responses to them. I was quite surprised when I finally woke up. I woke up to find that someone had somehow broken into my world and mangled all my hopes and cherished philosophies... only to realize that I had left it all unsecured. It was a mistake. To even look in that direction- I made myself too vulnerable from the beginning. From the beginning...it was a little girl. This guy, he noticed this little girl that adored this boy. He said he saw a little girl get shot in the head. He was so blatantly frightening...it made me curious, and I dismissed my desire to run away...because that is just giving into "fear". For a story...