I'm not even drinking
People are most honest when they are drunk...it seems... It seems when I am drunk, I am so emotional and so sensitive. Even words in jest, which I would normally cut off from me, hit me so hard...it seems so silly, so I want to stop it...but maybe I should embrace this side of myself. I have read the words over and over again, and heard them from so many people: Embrace the feminine and masculine aspects of yourself to find the perfect balance. What does that really mean? I always wondered. Does it mean that I will truly understand myself once I do this? Will I cease to wonder, "who am I?" and finally allow myself to just be me? I thought, "I want to be someone who is strong, so if I take the aspects I like of both sides, I will be someone strong like I have always imagined." Desperately trying to become someone better, something better... I feel I have somehow neglected the fact that I am human. I watched other people as if they were something differen...