Split

Everything has it’s polar opposite. Opposition, remember? Imagine a split heart, wanting things so different, and too jumbled to attract two things at once. So, you get one extreme and another extreme’s opposite, never both.

Security and Diversity

Romantic and Plantonic

Grounded and Transcendent

Creative and Analytical

Familiarity and New Experiences

Company and Privacy

Prosperity and Challenge

Intimate and Intellectual

Inspiration and Determination

Me and Me

It isn’t that I want opposite elements or that I cannot make up my mind, because to me these are not really opposites. They often exist separately for me, though. I feel them opposing each other in my mind, but I believe they can all coexist (some of them more cleanly than others).

If I visualize it, I can make anything happen.

My soul can expand to fill every short-coming and pitfall in my personality and heal every blemish and lesion inflicted upon my often down-trodden spirit.

Often I prize realistic dispositions… but for now I want to try to be an optimist. Perhaps optimism can infuse my mind with the power to clearly visualize, and therefore create, the state of being I wish to experience.

Instead of feeling so split, like two halves existing on separate planes, I want to find that mysterious place where they might meet and discover a third self in the combination of all that I know and all that I desire.