Danger of Loss

Sitting on the floor upon a blanket lit up by a single candle are the Tarot cards I pulled. I read and reread the meanings, and write down a vague interpretation to answer my question. "What will happen now?"

I feel like it's pretty straight forward. Know your friends, attempt to understand them... but in the center is a card titled "Danger of Loss". What does it mean?

Everything about the reading seems to be centered around someone I care deeply about, someone I feel very emotional toward. I wonder, "Does this mean I will lose that person?"

The card isn't placed in the future though, it's very clearly in the center. It's very clearly in the position of the present, of "me". Even reading interpretations I can't think of anything. I lay down to sleep with the thought, "should I just ignore it and leave it be?"

In the night I toss and turn...

Your face comes to me clearer and clearer, and I direct all the questions for myself to you.

Am I awake? How did you get beside me? Am I asleep? Why are my eyes open? Why am I here? Where am I? Who am I? Why? Why?! WHY?!

You smile at me, that pure lovely smile, reaching out as if to embrace me, and I rush to you. You place your warm hands on my shoulders, lips parting to speak, and I wipe the tears of frustration from my eyes to open my mind and heart to what you are about to say. With your sweet voice escapes a whisper, and my head splits from the magnitude of the words, "Get away from me," as you thrust me into a vast expanse of loneliness and despair.

I wake up... and find that nothing has changed about the situation... it's just that... I've lost my mind.