The Prettiest Girl

...is one who can smile for herself.


There are many things to smile for, the world is full of wonderful things...

The things that used to make me smile... unconditional love, spending time with people I like, singing and dancing, dressing up and having my hair done, cute things that people call girly, enjoying nature, talking to God...

...maybe they are things I should always be able to smile about. I am slowly recovering those sources happiness.


I wanted to write off the things I used to openly like as silly or girlie, so I could bury the little girl inside myself... I thought the stronger side of myself was the part that didn't care for those things... but really I have been that small scared person all along. I was just afraid of different things.

Now, I think I am willing to "wake" the parts of myself I have been suppressing and hiding, and abandon the fears I have been holding onto for years. I'm tired of closing off my feelings and realizing them long after I should have expressed them.

With new years come new goals, new experiences, new relationships... another year older. This year, I want to be able to give people straight answers. I want to continue working toward becoming a person who is unashamed of who they are... who is sensitive to others without being suppressed by them.

I will always hope for others to be able to see the real me and understand... but I want to be able to let them go and not hold it against anyone if they can't. Those understanding even a little bit are people I should cherish... and if they come to hurt me, I want to be able to see their actions clearly and be open minded and loving.

To love... to be able to smile for myself... I will be that kind of person.

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