Questionings of the Hour

"How are you liking Kennesaw State?" or "How are you liking being in Kennesaw?"

This must be the question of the hour. Everyone keeps asking me the same question. Is it because it's something I need to ponder? Maybe it's just one of those really random questions that people just ask. Maybe they've been asking me this whole time, and it's only just now bothering me. It's really only bothering me, because I don't know what answer I should give. I'm not the happiest, but I'm not disappointed...

Here's my question of the hour:

Is it better to love someone just because they love you...or to love someone for who they are, even if they don't love you the same way? With the first, maybe you will grow to love who they are, but with the second you can only hope they will grow to love you.

Why can't there just be a person who loves you just as much as you love them?

There are a lot of people like that...called friends and acquaintances. Sometimes, you really want someone who can see more of you, though. (Someone who will share with you a special part of themselves, too)

Well, sometimes when you crave a really big waffle, it's okay to make several little pancakes instead. You still get a taste for what you crave, even if it's not 100% satisfying. Sometimes "good enough" is all you get. Be fucking thankful.

Here's another good question:

How bad do you have to want something, for it to be yours? It seems the things I care least about are often just handed to me...the things I want most are always the things that are really hard to obtain. Is this the reason I want them, or are my desire and desire's attainability unrelated?

When you eat the little pancakes, be sure to eat them one at a time. Otherwise, it seems too obvious to your stomach that you didn't get what you wanted.

Is it worth the chance that the person you love will love you back? Or is "good enough", trying to love someone else, too much to be grateful for? Is it okay to hope for and desire more? Am I just really selfish and greedy?


I may be an over-achiever, because to have ambition, motivation to achieve goals, and the ability to do so are rare enough that even a step in the right direction goes above the expectations of those who have nothing to dream about.

It surprises me just how many people do not dream at night, when I dream every moment I'm alive.

There's a little plastic stone with a balloon on it, in a very special person's pocket. Looking at it every day, I hope he will never forget to dream. Life is so hard, especially for those who fear it's end, and I wish for those I love to be free from their fears.

Suffice it to say, I don't love myself as much as I probably should.

When the little pancakes are gone, because you ate them and they served their purpose...then you really notice how badly you wanted that waffle and how little the pancakes curbed that desire. Perhaps you wish you cherished them more, since you have nothing else to eat now? Perhaps you're taking them more for granted, since you're still harping on that waffle? I just really want to have the waffle when I want it, I don't want to have to settle. Eventually the craving will pass, though, I hope.


I think I've let the first question get to me a bit. How am I liking this new place I am in? I asked myself that very seriously, and wanted to find a serious answer.

Most serious things in this world are not very fun...

I may not have a complete answer, but it's good enough to say, "I like it better than where I was before."