Humanity

The internet...

...my activity on the internet is actually scarce enough that I think I could stop using every social site I have an account on, and no one else on that site would really notice...in fact I'm inactive on about 90% of the sites I have accounts on. On the off chance someone noticed, they probably wouldn't go further than asking me to be more active (and if I chose not to, chances are they would just stop worrying about it).

Life...

...my activity in life is almost entirely mental. I talk to only a select few people, and all the conversations I have with everyone run together into a mass of words in my mind. Frequently "who said what, when" becomes blurred and creates bouts of confusion in my daily life. If I were to get sick or go missing, I have such little contact with the majority of people I know, that without the few people who have some obligation to know why I am not somewhere (teachers, classmates, roommate...) only two people would actually notice within about a months time... (though those people have enough active networks of communication to spread the word and create a minor panic among my friends/family)

My mind...

...my possibilities are limitless. I could meet so many wonderful people, make so many wonderful things. I have plans to go out of the country, create a name for myself, create art, spread truth and ideas, learn to do so many things...

...but if I do nothing to connect my mental world and life itself...if I remain inside my mind, leaving my body and outward behavior awkward and unrefined...I could disappear...and so would everything I endeavor to do.

Endeavors are all great and wonderful...but if they remain endeavors, my life was all within my mind and imagination and with no one else as a witness to its splendor, it would be as if I never existed.

So, it's obvious, right? I have to "branch out" and connect to reality...but it's scary...

...I don't want to live life in fear, and I don't want my dreams to never taste reality.

Help me to escape myself...help me to fuse the worlds I've created...so I can live and be human again.

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  1. Lia ReneeJanuary 21, 2017 at 8:31 PM

    Actually, you did it. I am sitting in a cafe in Seoul, South Korea right now- you made it happen.

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